MONDAY MADNESS ON TUESDAY

Hello friends, it's been a minute since I posted a new blog forgive ME! A lot is going on but I am surviving by the grace of God. Pain levels have been extremely high the last several weeks and last week I'm pretty sure I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. It happens and I'm not afraid to admit it and you shouldn't be either.

Between Covid sticking around like an unwanted guest, not being able to get together with the family and friends, it's been a struggle more than I think we realize it or are willing to admit. Why are people so hesitant to talk about their feelings, I know it can be difficult, especially if you think you will be judged. Millions of people suffer all over the world with anxiety and depression without seeking any help, they suffer within themselves and try to put on their best happy face....like the commercial where the lady holds up a paper plate with a smiley face. It's funny but those of us who live with it know that it can be downright exhausting and scary and cause you physical problems as well.

For me last week was enough, I had a mild headache that seemed to last for days, I could feel heaviness in my chest ( anxiety ) and would cry and cry, uncontrollably at times. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and depression due to some pretty traumatic events that have occurred in my life since early childhood. It's funny how people will say "well that's in the past you need to move forward and focus on the good".....WOW, I never thought about that...I mean I kinda like feeling emotionally unstable at times. SAID NO ONE EVER. I know they mean well but I decided that whenever I hear that or some form of that I politely say "It's a lot more complex than that I'm afraid but the Lord is working in me every day". So far that has worked. Anyway, I contacted my dr right away, that's the safest route to go especially when we feel like we are spiralling fast...she made adjustments in my medication and so far that is helping- yep that fast. Like I said my pain level has been very high and I believe when I am not emotionally ok I'm also not physically ok. My pain management Dr expressed the relationship between our physical pain and our state of mind, I'm going to start reading into it and I am in the process of finding a dr who does CBT (cognitive behavior therapy) I have been reading and watching some "mock" sessions and it honestly makes sense so I am excited to start. Until next time folks.

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